Gorgeous Weather

It is beautiful outside today. I always tell myself once the weather gets better I'll be better about getting outside and exercising, and it never pans out the way I want it to. I'll start my garden soon, and that will be some great outside activity, plus it's easier to bring the kids outside when I don't need to put 20 layers of clothing on each one. But I never stick to that evening walk, or daily swim that I swear I am going to do. It's always easy to come up with an excuse, the kids need baths, I can't bring them both in the pool alone, etc. This is another thing to work on.

I am working today, so I'm going to be enjoying this beautiful day from the inside. But I don't mind too much. I really like my job, the work is fun, the customers are interesting, and the co-workers are fantastic. For the 1st time in over 3 years I am Jen again. Not Makenzie or Kennedy's mom, or K.C.'s wife, I am Jen who has a husband and 2 kids. I didn't realize how much I missed being Jen. I didn't realize how much I wrapped myself up in my kids, and while I love them, and still want to be there for everything, I am enjoying going to work. I am enjoying being a person with likes and dislikes, who is relied upon by more than just my family, and not just a mom. The girls have adapted really well, and at then end of the day I believe I am a better mom by not being there all the time, which is a fantastic thing for everyone.

Avoidance

Yeah, I have been avoiding this. I can try and justify it as being busy with work and home, which I am. But really and truly I have just been avoiding. So today I bit the bullet and broke out my Wii, I've been ok the past couple of weeks, which has paid off with a total loss of 4 lbs. Sounds great.... BUT that's a total loss over about 8 weeks. That doesn't sound so great.

So I talked to my husband about it, because I hadn't really clued him in to the fact that I was trying to be healthier, and figured it would probably help me if I had his help as well. At the very least he would probably be a bit more stealth about eating junk in front of me. He was actually very supportive of it and wants to do a type of weight loss competition with me. We are both pretty competitive people, so this could be a good kick in the butt. It could also totally backfire and make me want to sabotage him, so we'll see how it goes.